Monday, August 21, 2006
It just dawned upon me that my exams are starting this friday. YES THIS FRIDAY. And i'm so very stressed now even the boyfriend thinks i'm schizophrenic. HELP! :( i know myself too well. i'm so going to flunk like nobody's business cos of the stupid fact that i'm complacent. yea so i need to get my ass out of bed before i fall asleep once again.
8:43 PM;
Monday, August 14, 2006
GUO WEI & ME ((:
I've not seen her in like 5 years! Btw, she's my China friend who has been studying in Canada in the past 5 years. I'm so envious of her because she speaks both chinese&english with an accent. So she who used to learn english from me can be my SHIFU now. I'll have to wait till she complete her uni before seeing her again.. which is like 4years later.
Exams are in less than 2 weeks time *groans* i cant imagine myself sitting in the exam hall for 3 hours. I hope my butt doesnt grow wider or else i'll have to hit the gym real soon. I need to exercise real badly cos given my condition now, no one would have believed me if i said i was from track&field, yes? :(
9:46 PM;
Saturday, August 12, 2006
i had a very weird dream. it's a mixture of everyone i know, ranging from pri sch, sec sch to poly friends.. it's weird how they get to know each other in my dreams. uhh but it was very saddening too cos someone stole my angel away :( ohwell. maybe she really needed my angel more than i do. everyone and everything is just going against me. SIGH
11:20 AM;
Thursday, August 10, 2006
seriously. if u dont like me. just tell me right in the face. dont act as if you're nice when u're not. i dont care even if you want me out of the house cos you are seriously brainless in my opinion. some people are too fortunate to understand other ppl's misfortune. yea in a way selfish. ok enough of that crap. i doubt anyone understands me
i NEED motivation badly. i'm pretty irritated by myself. i hate to disappoint my parents and yet i'm doing nothing about it. blah blah blah. just leave me alone.
12:02 AM;
Tuesday, August 01, 2006
I love my dino. she's so cute :) I know i look fat, thank you.
I dont know why but i always seem to attract the wrong guys. They are either ah bengs, you know those kind who sell durians with tattoo on their bodies, or old man( imagine white hair and wrinkled skin). i'm so very sad. :( so i was in the train today looking at my pipc notes and trying to appreciate it. reached pasir ris and was walking to whitesands when suddenly i heard, 'you having exams tmr?' i thought that the old man was just talking to someone else but he was actually talking to me. so out of politeness, i replied him. mind you, he's in his 40s already i think. he continued saying he's studying in a private school and stuff like that i almost wanted to smack his face because like what the hell has it got to do with me? he asked if i understood my lecture cos my notes were blank. okay so he thinks i'm stupid and i was angry. so i told him yes, i understood and those were not blanks. those lines were meant for us to take down notes, thank you very much. BUT he had to continue pestering me. He offered to help me with my chemistry so i asked him what course is he taking in the private school, he proudly said SOCIAL STUDIES i almost fainted there and then. i gave him a very blank face and he continued saying that he studied chemistry before and though he didnt do very well he could still help me blah blah blah. okay maybe he was really trying to be nice i dont know and i dont want to know either. yea so he gave me his number so i could call him. i almost rolled on the floor and died laughing. so the very nice me just took down his number and said bye. the thing is, i'll never ever call him lest his wife thinks i'm his mistress so i very hope i'll never get to see him again. i'm very sad today. i've not studied and i'm as broke as a beggar(sounds wrong i know).
SLEEPING CAN MAKE ME HAPPY!
11:35 PM;
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