6:09 AM;

Happy birthday daddy! Tell me you're coming home soon. I'm sorry i'm such a failure. I cant even do my paper today :(

2:07 AM;

I dont know how am i going to survive this. Really, no one understands how i'm feeling now. Dont come telling me that you do cos u dont even know my condition. I'm scared but there's no one here to reassure me. I go to church but i just ended up crying. I dont wana go school tomorrow even though i have a paper. Am i going to die?

8:24 AM;

Hello. I'm gonna blog about something interesting tonight if i have some time to spare cos i'm late for church now. 12.30 mass and i'm still at home at like 12? Another week has passed and it's time to reflect and repent on my sins. Goodbye folks and watch this space. (:

8:53 PM;

God leaves obstacles and surprises along the way. That's what makes life interesting. Thank you for making me realise that. (:

9:29 AM;

Please keep your nonsensical silly comments to yourself or at least dont let me see it cos it's not appreciated at all thank you very much. I have the right to say whatever i want in my blog. You're not as smart as you think you are, really. Btw, it has nothing to do with the comments in my tagboard in case you all are wondering.

11:03 AM;

Hello folks. Life has been treating me alright with some occasional scratches here and there. My toe still hurt i cant bend it :( I've been faithfully reading the bible every night before i go to bed. I think it really helps alot. Last sunday in church, i leart about the seven deadly sins and i think i've been committing them ever so often. Anger, jealousy, pride... the list goes on.

French roleplay is over! So i happily forgot my lines and i was so pissed with myself so i expected us to do badly for it but jerome said well done! Me and donna got an A! haha i think we can go to Paris already.

I was reading this article about brad pitt and jennifer aniston. I used tothink they were a golden couple match made in heaven. I love them so much i was quite affected when they separated. Pitt left jen for jolie after they met onset filming mr & mrs smith which was one of my favourite movies. Their marriage was rocky in the first place which probably led to him leaving for jolie. I remembered how isa and i used to argue over whether jen or jolie was better. I'm team aniston and she's team jolie! haha So now you think pitt and jolie are doing good? Looks like they arent doing too well either. Got the below from a website!

Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie have been fighting non-stop lately, and Brad needed to talk to someone who really understood him. Which meant only one person: his ex-wife, Jennifer Aniston! As Life & Style reports in its cover story this week, Brad phoned Jen, intending to pour his heart out about his problems with Angie — and ended up revealing his true feelings for Jen!

“Brad told Jen that he missed being with a woman who was his best friend,” the insider says. In fact, he became so emotional, he blurted a shocking confession to Jen: “I think I made a huge mistake leaving you.” The insider insists, “There’s no doubt Brad would love to have Jen back.”

So now the question is will jen give pitt another chance? I admire and looked up to jen, for being so brave, strong and independent after all that happened. Pitt's parents love jen too and have been checking up on her to see how she was doing. how sweet right? I would really love to see them together again. (:

5:58 AM;

This is what they do to skinny boy when i brought him to school. Skinny boy doing yoga? Ultimate cuteness. =D

I was at the airport yesterday and i saw this angmoh guy holding a bouquet of flowers. He was waiting for his gf's arrival. Damn sweet right?

Go listen to hey there delilah by plain white t's. It's currently stuck in my head.

3:18 AM;

Fireworks festival tonight and i didnt want to go cos i just wana spend some time alone at home.I hope you all have fun. I was crying to skinny monkey just now cos i felt really horrible inside. Skinny monkey was smiling as usual, as if telling me things will be better. I hope you like skinny monkey as much as i do and i hope they'll meet again.

2:39 AM;

Here are some silly pictures i took with skinny monkey. I brought skinny monkey to sch today and everyone loves him (:






French roleplay later and i can only memorise a sentence. How smart charlene.

Tomorrow is the 17th. Istillheartyoubaby.

Count the number of raindrops falling. That's how much imissyou.

7:24 PM;

Thank you to all those who asked about my toe, esp corne who offered me his crutches. I'm better already and now everyone knows how clumsy i am. haha the other time i sprained my ankle cos i was trying to avoid a moth. yes how smart.

Met pat the past 2 days and was practically pouring my heart out to her. Thanks for always watching over me babe. I seriously dont know what to do without you. And thank you for the harrypotter file!

Been talking to quite a few ppl like terence and joyce and it's really nice to have someone understand how you feel. You both made my day. (:

DONNA SIM has been the most patient bestie by listening to my same old crap everyday. hahaha i can be really ridiculous at times but thanks for always being there. I love you!

Bestie has been really busy with i dont know what but i still heart him. He downloads bomberman for me and watch silly movies with me.

Studied with wey today and it was really nice catching up with him after so long. We talked about life which sets me thinking quite alot. I love talking about such stuff cos it allows me to reflect and also makes me treasure my loved ones more. Thank you for talking to me and sending me home. (:

Aunty Annie has been calling me from msia ever so often just to check on me. She always know what to say. She even knows how to chat with me on msn. ya thats how cute she is. Thank you and i love you.

I love mummy the most. She ordered for me my favourite chicken pie and hati parit cake. Daddy rocks too he lets me use the money in his account. (:

I feel really blessed. (: Thank you lord for sending these people into my life. I'll appreciate them and not take them for granted i promise. I've already learnt my lesson so please dont take away my happiness again.

Oh ya i got into drp which means i have to commit 90hours doing research on food analysis. I'm still considering cos i really wana get out of sg. I need a break seriously.

9:03 AM;

I fractured my toe at home today. I happily tripped over something and it was bleeding so bad i freaked out and cried. :(:(:( Now it's swollen and i'm limping real bad i dont know how i'm going school tmr. boohoohoo

7:40 AM;

TGIF! i finally get to reach home at 5pm and take my well deserved nap!

I swear i almost got a heart attack when i saw 26 pending friend requests on friendster. It's either friendster is lagging real bad or my friendster profile somehow turned famous overnight. Then again, i dont even know any of those people. There's even this girl who grabbed like 14 of my pictures and put it in her friendster. And i didnt even know until she commented on my friendster telling me about it. It's so totally insane please. What the hell is she thinking? Then there's this 2 other guys who have my pics on their friendster too. omg can i sue them?

Today's marketing presentation was screwed up. I was being a kanchiong spider cos the wireless mouse wasnt working properly and i ended up forgetting what i'm supposed to say. Everyone still tell me i did alright. I know they're lying. :( You dont know how relieved i am now. I'm left with CSAS proj and french roleplay due next week.

NDP yesterday was fun but i was melting under the sun and i got home at only like 12am. I thought about last year's ndp and got a little emo and then i asked myself why did things turn out like that? For the times i've cried myself to sleep, you were never there for me. You would rather sleep your nights away than to hear me cry and got irritated when i cry, and then i've always been there for you :( Anyway i was so enthu singing the songs as if i'm a singaporean. lol but i really do feel like a part of singapore already after being here for 10 years? Went to bedok 85 after that and had real good food. Yay our next destination is chomp chomp. (:

I think i just lost my bestfriend. He doesnt care about me anymore. I doubt he even knows how i'm feeling right now. I'm saddd :( I did something damn loserish today i shall not even mention what is it.

I'm currently addicted to Rihanna's SHUT UP & DRIVE. You all should go and watch the video it's sexylicious.

8 more days to go! You're gonna hear from me lesser and lesser soon. And then i might just disappear.

4:11 AM;

10:28 AM;

Alright, i bugis-ed again today because dearest von,donna and lynn wanted to get green colour tops for NDP performance this thurs. Oh yah in case you dont know yet, i'll be in the formation of the largest human flag on national day. You can try to catch a glimpse of me on TV if the camera happens to be like right in front of me. haha

In case you all are wondering, xxx is just an imaginary person so stop all your wild guesses. I'm not seeing anyone new and am not planning to as well thank you very much. The great one is just my bestie who has been unconditionally there for me. I'm really happy for you bestie now that you have another chance at this relationship. I'm sure you both will last alright? And Terence, your gf is really funny. She held your hands even though you both are no longer together because she said it has already become a habit. That's so sweet alright. I'm sure both of you will be fine too.

So now i think after being the superwoman helping people reconcile, i'm left being single myself. Not that i actually mind. Single, attractive and indepedent ladies, it's good where you are and i envy that. I can feel the beauty of these women glowing from inside and i want to be like them. (:

Tomorrow is OC quiz again and i must say how much i dread it. I need motivation. I can hear you saying, 'remember GPA 3.8'. I'll make it come true. (:

I hate waking up from a nap and having that tinge of loneliness in me. Daddy, when are you coming back? I miss your cooking. I love you daddy for being so supportive even though i thought u'll be angry at what happenened recently cos nat has been giving you so much boy-girl relationship problems.

It's funny now how everytime when we want to gossip about other ppl or do some mean stuff, one of us will start saying, 'Eh KARMA ah!' and everyone just ended up laughing. lol i dont know why but they say it started because of me. It's true la, really. I think i've turned into an angel because of this. lol

To ruwei, please cheer up and dont let your dreams hold you back. I'm sure god has better plans for you. Don't be upset anymore alright? (:

Your face is starting to fade away.

5:17 AM;

I HEART PATRICIA CHEONG JIA PEI. THANK YOU girly for listening me out and always being there. Haji lane was crap cos our sch ended late and by the time we reached there most of the shops were already closed. We went bugis village instead and if money is not an issue, i would have spent like $1000.

Today was quite a bad day actually. We got back fpath tut quiz and i was like the only one in the whole wide world to fail it. Seriously i didnt think i was so unlucky to get all the true&false questions wrong. The fpath lec quiz we took today was crap. Tell me miracles do happen.

And, i just realised alot of ppl have been reading my blog. Now everyone knows how loser-ish my life is. I must emphasize the fact that i have not watched harry potter yet. That already makes me one of the biggest loser on earth. I want to watch harry potter and be cool. hahaha

8:08 AM;

13 more days to go! I cant wait!

7:48 AM;

Hello xxx. I've got lots of things to tell you but i cant bring myself to do so. I think i need you. Tell me you feel the same way too.

9:26 AM;

This is the first time i cried for you. :( There are things i wana tell you but i cant, cos either way it'll hurt you, and i dont wana see you sad. I hope to see you smile once again.

9:02 AM;

Marketing test today was so so. It's the explanation part which is damn frustrating. The great one you owe me a treat cos i know i wont get 80. haha

I've never seen a guy cry so much for a girl before. Siti and Joyce were trying to separate me and Terence because they are afraid i'll start crying when i see him cry. I know exactly how you are feeling. They are feelings of betrayal. Like how could someone who used to love you so much actually do such hurtful things to you. I totally understand. We have to accept the fact that people do change but we all know that our family members and true friends are the one who will always be there cos their love for us will never change. I told you what mummy told me and you nodded your head so i hope you're feeling better now. It's okay to cry because it's not a sin to be weak at times.

I suddenly feel so tired of living. There's so much tests and projects undone i dont even wana think about it. I dont understand why it's never finished. I think i need a hug badly. :( Sometimes, i wonder if you actually think of me. Am i really just a friend? I need answers to these questions. Do you think i can google them?

I just realised that you're so updated with my life but i'm not updated with yours at all. Maybe it's not a bad thing after all. Although i sort of know what's going on cos i can feel it, i'm trying to take things easy. Dont ask me how i can feel it. You're a part of me for 2 years, how can i not know what you're thinking? I just hope you spare a thought for my feelings before you do anything. I hope that's not too much to ask for. I know you're not that heartless, right? Even though i cant see, the pain is not any lesser, really.

8:45 AM;

Do you believe in karma? I believe what goes around comes around so i tend to watch my words and actions nowadays. I seriously think you're very childish. You said we are friends, but friends dont talk to each other like that do they? They help each other when they are in need, no? I was just sincerely asking for help and nothing else so i dont think i deserve this shit from you. I think i deserve an apology seriously. If you still think whatever you did was right, then i think you need to do some major reflection on yourself. Let's see who'll have the last laugh. I need not say anymore.

damnnn stupid marketing test is like 10% tmr and i have no slightest idea what my notes are talking about. I need alot of luck. Thank you the great one for helping me get the marketing book. (: yes mummy will treat you to lunch when she comes here but you being her god-son part, i dont really think so. HAHAHA and you should stop being so greedy because we always ended up wasting alot of food. I LOVE YOU BESTIEEE =D

8:25 AM;