I've thought about lots of stuff. Seriously my head is splitting even when i'm typing this. I dont know if you still read my blog but i just wana say sorry to you for always mentioning the breakup word. I know how much you hate it and yet i didnt care about your feelings at all. I'm childish and selfish cos i'm always saying it at a moment of anger. I'm really sorry and i realised my mistake a little too late i guess.

Secondly, i guess i've been really stubborn and headstrong. Even my mum says so and i'm always denying it. I just realised how much you loved me and how bad i am at showing my love for you. I know i'm always not making you feel secure at all. But deep down in my heart, i really do love you. I guess i expressed it the wrong way. I'm such a bad gf after all. I promise i'll change for my own good. I'm sure u'll find someone a zillion times better than me. You have everything a girl wants.

I'm sure you dont know how much it hurts me when i had to listen to your conversation with another girl in your car for half an hour. My heart almost died. You dont know how painful it is when you said you would rather get another gf who's more obliging. I really wouldnt hurt someone i love like that.. so i guess that it's true you dont love me anymore.

I've tried my dear, to make up for everything ever since we broke up. I really tried very hard to make it up to you, to prove to you i'll be a better gf.. but i still lost the battle. It was a painful battle and i really thank all my friends who've been there for me all the time. They said i've always been the strongest among all but this really brought me down. You dont know how important you are to me. We've been through the toughest times together. I just want us to try once more. I know you've lost your feelings and stuff but i just want you to give me one more chance to prove to you that we'll be alright. I just dont want us to regret few years down the road. At least if we didnt work out, we did try right?

I've been acting like a zombie these past few days. Wn's words actually knocked some sense into me. I think maybe i should let you go. I really tried baby to salvage this relationship. If u're reading this, i really love you andrew. Give me sometime, and i'll take off the ring you gave me for our 2nd year anniversary. I still remember the scene at vil'age restaurant. It was really sweet of you. I hope you have some good memories of us even though i'm such a bad gf. Thank you for holding on to our relationship till now. I know you want to abide to your principles. If only you would change for me, you can bring a smile back to my face again.

For now, i just want you to be healthy and happy, even if it's dating other girls. I cant stop you from getting a new gf either. I dont think i can accept it if we get back together again after you've gotten yourself a new gf and broke up with her. It'll probably be haunting me all the time.. and i dont want to be treated as a substitute either even though i want to be with you so much. Actually i know you wont come back for me already, but you were nice and all cos you didnt want to hurt me.

Sorry Andrew for everything, for loving you the wrong way to having the worst temper a girl could ever have. I really want you to know i do love you despite all these.

This photo was taken damn long ago using your lousy hp. haha we were so cute and innocent, no?

I bought this top long ago thinking i can wear it out when i'm with you but i doubt so anymore.

Goodbye.