I've never seen a guy cry so much for a girl before. Siti and Joyce were trying to separate me and Terence because they are afraid i'll start crying when i see him cry. I know exactly how you are feeling. They are feelings of betrayal. Like how could someone who used to love you so much actually do such hurtful things to you. I totally understand. We have to accept the fact that people do change but we all know that our family members and true friends are the one who will always be there cos their love for us will never change. I told you what mummy told me and you nodded your head so i hope you're feeling better now. It's okay to cry because it's not a sin to be weak at times.

I suddenly feel so tired of living. There's so much tests and projects undone i dont even wana think about it. I dont understand why it's never finished. I think i need a hug badly. :( Sometimes, i wonder if you actually think of me. Am i really just a friend? I need answers to these questions. Do you think i can google them?

I just realised that you're so updated with my life but i'm not updated with yours at all. Maybe it's not a bad thing after all. Although i sort of know what's going on cos i can feel it, i'm trying to take things easy. Dont ask me how i can feel it. You're a part of me for 2 years, how can i not know what you're thinking? I just hope you spare a thought for my feelings before you do anything. I hope that's not too much to ask for. I know you're not that heartless, right? Even though i cant see, the pain is not any lesser, really.