I wonder if i should stop my 'i miss you' post at just 75. I feel my heart aching just trying to type out the memories. Yesterday was really the IT day. I dont think i'll ever forget what happened. The talk, the cries, the love, the hatred, the unforgiveness, the police, the slaps, the shouts, the look in the eyes, the confessions, the memories, the jealousy, the lies. WHY? Though Chuck&Larry was funny, it didnt make up for everything that happened after that. Sigh. Alright meeting ruwei now though i'm having cramps + vomitting. Worst thing is i cant swallow pills. How smart Charlene. Will continue blogging when i'm back. Goodbye.
Okay i'm back and i've decided to change clothes for my blog. How pretty, yes? hmm.. anyway i'm at loss of words to describe yesterday. You know boy, you're the only one who can make me the happiest as well as the saddest. You always tell me you lie cos you dont wana hurt me but how long do you wana go on hiding things from me? Now i dont know when are you telling the truth and when are you not. What happened to the boy whom i used to trust the most and can depend my life on? And why do i feel that the only reason we are communicating is because of the phone? Maybe it's time you be really honest with me and tell me how you feel, really. It's only fair for me whether it's gonna hurt or not.
I suddenly thought of xmas and all the pretty lightings. This year i'll be spending xmas in sg, like finally.. but i'm so not looking forward to it :((( I only have one wish for this xmas and no, i'm not telling you or else it wont come true. No prizes for guessing though! =D
I think i should stop tormenting myself. I deserve better than that, seriously. :)
