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Saturday, November 03, 2007

This week has been rather hectic for me but i would say i'm loving it. Managed to catch up with Al just now and i just found out he's been with his gf for almost 8 years. And his gf is only like a year older than me. I find it sooooo amazing! But knowing Al's character, it's very possible lah. He's such a gentleman. =D Makes me think of charlie&keshia too. We met them at marche last valentine's day. They have been fighting quite alot recently which makes me rather upset just reading her entries but i'm sure they'll hang on. :) Anyway Al told me he drove past my old house 2 days ago and the swing is still there. I suddenly got reminded of our childhood. It's been 10 years since my family sold the house because we migrated. My childhood was a memorable one because me and my sis got pampered like princesses. We even got a playroom to ourselves and a doghouse probably half as huge as my current house now. We'll get almost anything we want and because dad was a rather prominent figure in the bank sector, we sort of enjoyed his limelight too. =D

Was thinking about some stuff just now and i realised how much you've changed and how much i want the old you back. I'm rather disgusted by your actions now. Let's see how long you can play. Ahhh see what lust(or your so called love) can do to people? Everytime you lied and hurt me, i chose to think i deserve it. I thought it's okay because as long as i hang on, things will change. I was in self denial all the time. Yes i lied to myself just so it wont hurt so bad. BUT I WAS WRONG! I should have seen it coming. You not only disappoint me, you disappoint us. I wish i have selective hearing and seeing. There are things i dont wana hear or see but i know it's going to happen. I prayed just now and told god that i'm going to forgive you for everything you did. What i cant believe was i prayed for you still! Ppl would probably think i'm insane to be even praying for you but god told me that i should. It took me so much courage cos you dont know how much i hate you. I feel so much at peace now because it's like a burden off my shoulder and ya i dont hate you anymore, really. Your friend told me i'm very brave and i have really good self control. Well i sort of promised father bosco something so i'm gonna try keep to my promise. I'll never forget that hug because it means so so much to me. :) And donnasim i'm very normal still in case you think i'm not. lol

There are much more things to be happy about though.
*Shopping with gf yesterday was ultimate fun!
*I got many many stuff from dorothy and topman! Guess who's the lucky guy? Ya definitely not you lah.
*I had my nails doneeeee! again?
*I had aunty anne's pretzel yay!
*I had my daily dose of passionfruit red tea. BUBBLE TEA rocks =D
*Went zach's house and watched vacancy which scared the shit out of me!
*Lloyd gave me a tub of haagen dazs cookies chocolate!
*Sok Mey called and told me she's back in sg! Wheee
*I went grocery shopping with daddy!
*I hugged daddy today!
*Aunty Lilian, Uncle Yang and Beatrice are coming sg!
*I'm attending a wedding dinner next week! cant wait cant wait =D
*Jerome will be back in 20 days! Hang in there!

I think i'm easily satisfied nowadays. Even a smile from a stranger can make me happy. I'm beginning to learn how to show my appreciation for the small little things that ppl do for me. And my temper is getting much better too, right lynn? haha i'm really quite proud of myself. Praise the lord! (:

Summer came like cinnamon... so sweet :)

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