Saturday, May 31, 2008
So far, i've busted close to 800 on medical bills. yeah crazy i know. I think i'm perfectly alright now besides the rashes that i'm having. Gah. I shall blog without pictures today cause i'm too lazy.
So i heard some stuff like two weeks back. I was being accused of something i've never imagined. I hate group politics seriously. It really upsets me that friends are treating each other like that just because they want to outshine each other. Urgh. Then i got a surprise from ben in school which totally brightened up my day. He got me a bouquet of blue roses. haha what's with girls and flowers anyway?
Daddy, mummy and brandon are flying over next week! *GRINS* Bad timing though cause i'll be having my term tests and presentation. Gah but still i'm going to drag mummy to go shopping with me haha GSS kills. I think daddy is going to scream at me when the credit card bills come. And i'm suffering from a major closet overload which is so not helping. Not that i'm complaining haha.
So i heard some stuff like two weeks back. I was being accused of something i've never imagined. I hate group politics seriously. It really upsets me that friends are treating each other like that just because they want to outshine each other. Urgh. Then i got a surprise from ben in school which totally brightened up my day. He got me a bouquet of blue roses. haha what's with girls and flowers anyway?
Daddy, mummy and brandon are flying over next week! *GRINS* Bad timing though cause i'll be having my term tests and presentation. Gah but still i'm going to drag mummy to go shopping with me haha GSS kills. I think daddy is going to scream at me when the credit card bills come. And i'm suffering from a major closet overload which is so not helping. Not that i'm complaining haha.
I watched indiana jones, sex and the city and narnia in just a week. Sex and the city wins hands down =D but i still find harrison ford hot though lol
I thought the only reason i needed you was cause i needed someone to fill that void inside me. I dont know, this whole thing was wrong from the start. I know i shouldnt be doing this.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Forgiveness does not mean condoning or approving sin. It does not mean excusing it or justifying it either. But it does mean coming to the place where you realize it is neither fair nor reasonable to hold ill-will toward another person for something in the past outside his or her ability to change.
Forgiveness is not for present or future sins. That is condoning. Forgiveness doesn't mean sweeping the sin under the carpet or out of sight so you don't feel the pain of it any longer. It means facing the offense, coming to the place where you know it was wrong, that it was chosen, that the person didn't have to commit that sin, and then knowing that sin against you was up front and personal, choose to forgive it.
Beyond this, lack of forgiveness hurts others and ourselves as well. There is no good that comes out of it. Only hatred and bitterness and eventually hellfire and brimstone.
Forgiveness is a sign of maturity, of sincerity, of true love and a true relationship.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Yes yes, as most of you would have already know, i'm quite seriously ill. I've been skipping lectures and struggling to attend tutorials and labs the past one week. My blocked Eustachian tubes are giving me a lot of problems and i'm given antibiotics as huge as i dont know what and some weird nasal spray that the doctor said would hopefully work on me or else it's to the H-O-S-P-I-T-A-L tomorrow. I almost burst into tears when the doctor said i had to go for a surgery which involves inserting a tube into my nose or cutting a hole in my eardrum. Mummy's so insistent on flying over i had to convince her that i'll be alright and she told me the best mother's day gift i can give her is for me to get well :( Gah! I am very surprised by the amount of well wishes i received everyday. Thank you for all the text messages and calls. Thank you to those who insisted on going to the doctor with me. You know who you are. I love you all :) Goodnight and pray for me, yes?
Friday, May 02, 2008
I'm all good, really. Thank you for all those who showed concern and were there to listen to the same old rantings like the 1000000th time, especially D and P :) I love you both to the moon and back. Anyway i have to say that the past one year has changed and shaped me to be a better person. With age comes wisdom, I can proudly say that i'm more matured in my thinking and have learnt to see things in a different perspective. I think i used to be so self-centred and hot tempered :( but i'm glad for all the true friends who never gave up on me. If given the same situation, i think i would have done things differently now. Other than that i'm still the same old charlene who enjoys eating and sleeping more than anything else :D Oh yesss i miss patricia cheong very much i dont even see her in school now because she's currently doing her internship and she'll only be back in school in july but i'll be going off for my internship in september :(
I feel the need to bitch about the weather today. It's so ______ (inserts word to describe very, bloody, ridiculously, omg, damn) HOT that the only difference from the desert is probably the sand that is missing. Global warming is somehow making sense to me now. Stop killing the trees please i dont want to be dying of heatwave of all things thank you very much.
TP is seriously making me enochlophobic. I've probably never seen so many people in my entire 20 years of life. With all the first year freshman wannabes wearing miniskirts topped with eyeliner trying to impress the people around them, i seriously feel like slapping them with a big fat smelly trout. This doesnt just apply to TP students if you think i have something against them. It's like that everywhere. But then again, i dont blame them cause they are just some senseless 16year olds. There are definitely exceptions though cause my sister, fortunately, doesnt act like that haha and i cant be bothered if you beg to differ so keep your comments to yourself. I've learnt that by being yourself, you are at your most attractive and you want people to love you for who you are and not who you are not right?
I am sick and down with cramps. What a way to spend my mini holiday from thursday to sunday :( Ohh should i opt for overseas student internship program? I'm thinking of going to either Perth or Melbourne but i'm quite apprehensive because that means i have only 12 weeks to complete my major project. How now brown cow?
I feel the need to bitch about the weather today. It's so ______ (inserts word to describe very, bloody, ridiculously, omg, damn) HOT that the only difference from the desert is probably the sand that is missing. Global warming is somehow making sense to me now. Stop killing the trees please i dont want to be dying of heatwave of all things thank you very much.
TP is seriously making me enochlophobic. I've probably never seen so many people in my entire 20 years of life. With all the first year freshman wannabes wearing miniskirts topped with eyeliner trying to impress the people around them, i seriously feel like slapping them with a big fat smelly trout. This doesnt just apply to TP students if you think i have something against them. It's like that everywhere. But then again, i dont blame them cause they are just some senseless 16year olds. There are definitely exceptions though cause my sister, fortunately, doesnt act like that haha and i cant be bothered if you beg to differ so keep your comments to yourself. I've learnt that by being yourself, you are at your most attractive and you want people to love you for who you are and not who you are not right?
I am sick and down with cramps. What a way to spend my mini holiday from thursday to sunday :( Ohh should i opt for overseas student internship program? I'm thinking of going to either Perth or Melbourne but i'm quite apprehensive because that means i have only 12 weeks to complete my major project. How now brown cow?
Thursday, May 01, 2008
I feel a little sore accompanied with a tinge of sadness today. Just a wee-bit i guess. I know i'll be lying if i say i'm not. Well i still think it's a pity. That's what happens when you remember dates well.