Friday, August 01, 2008
Sorry for the disappearing act. Life goes on as usual, while i'm trying to pick up the pieces, and put them back together. Till today, i still dont understand what went wrong. Trying to be the best friend to one and the best girl to another, but at the end of the day, it's all the same. Maybe i tried too hard, just maybe, i dont know. I only knew i've done all i could. All the small little things and big ones, things i've never done for anyone but you. Maybe everything we shared was just so insignificant, cause you would rather hold the grudge against me for the small things that went wrong and i wouldnt even think it's my fault :( I'm upset, cause i felt like a toy to you. I'm never the one who would give up, and i tried all i could to hang on even though jealousy gets in the way. If only you didnt give up, because you simply dont know how much it's hurting inside.
There's so much things i want to tell you, so much things i would love to share with you. I guess all these would be tucked safely in my heart right now. I really just wish you'll be truly happy and that things are going well for you, especially your work and health, simply because i still care and that i'm not there to nag at you. I never knew i would be in such a mess. I guess at the end of the day, one has got to sacrifice, and i know it would be me.
There's so much things i want to tell you, so much things i would love to share with you. I guess all these would be tucked safely in my heart right now. I really just wish you'll be truly happy and that things are going well for you, especially your work and health, simply because i still care and that i'm not there to nag at you. I never knew i would be in such a mess. I guess at the end of the day, one has got to sacrifice, and i know it would be me.